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in your eyes
im a failure,
a soon to be drop out
some one who cant
learn from their mistakes
a lush
good for nothin
pot head
who smokes
a pack a day
disrespectful,
carless
hopeless..
i hang out
with the wrong crowd
you think to yourself
"why can you
be like chelsie?
she doesnt do
anything wrong
ive never cought
her doing anything"
its becasue you
dont expect her to fail,
you look to me
to relieve your saddness
that your mom
and dad gave you
you say you love me
how can you?
if im all these things?
how do you
even look at me?
some times you cant
you just look right threw me
so maybe the only thing
that i really am
or want to be
to you is
invisible
-suess
July 15 2005, 03:45:43 UTC 6 years ago
it's good , but it makes me sad ..
very sad .
she loves you & i know she loves you . i'm in that same situation
with BOTH of my parents & i have the "perfect" older brother too :[
you're not invisible to anyone , love you billie .
July 15 2005, 03:47:16 UTC 6 years ago
aww ! te amo billie .
don't change who you are .
just try to be a better person .
love love
July 15 2005, 03:53:17 UTC 6 years ago
are you a pot smoker ?
are you disrespectful ?
do you smoke a pack a day ?
do you not learn from your mistakes ?
no ..
so proove that to her .
by not letting her find coronas in your room
and cigs in your car .
thats a start .
you arent invisible to her, and she doesnt want you to be
its not her fault she wants you on the path to success
by her being a pain in the butt
it shows she really loves you .
im the one thats always supposed to be there for you
but who was when i wasnt ?
who was there when we broke up ?
whose the one that said shes always there when you needed to talk ?
your mom .
you think she loves you less because she worries more
but thats not it .
if she just let you do whatever you wanted all the time
she wouldnt be labeled "mother"
dont ever second guess a mothers love
because you will understand when your a dad .
... well, not by the way you plan on raising your two kids .
hahahaha
but honestly, your mom loves you - no doubt
why else would i just want to sit back and observe you guys when im there, because i wish i had what you have
dont take it for grantid
remember i love you and im always here
i swear my love .
August 17 2005, 02:54:47 UTC 6 years ago
i havent heard the cig story yet but im damn sure gonna have to ehar it, and then theres the person who was there to talk and hello i moved so yea man all yougot is tu madre or me ifyou would pick up the phone, and then theres raising your kids, now come on, our kids are going to grow up like us man doing everything together and gettin into trouble together and ones gonna be the better bs'er but hey no matter what man you aint a failure i mean think about it you made it this far and i wasnt exactly the best influence ill admit but hey at least your going to go on to do what im dying to and thats graduate with the kids you have known all your life and man i would give mine to do that but i know that my place is here with my baby girl for another year then we are gone man commin to find you and bri....so hold out man and make it through we'll be neighbors soon enough...